ene(ME)

i've decided that i am my worst enemy. what am i to do now? shoot myself in the foot?? stab myself in the back? (which, btw, is too far a stretch even for these spindly, limber, little arms) i am becoming swifter by the moment, my right hook is gaining ground. should i kick my own butt? dag nabit, i'm going to try.

so here is what i have decided. when God says pray for your enemies, he also means i should keep myself before God in prayer. i am to pray for the "me" who under the sway of sin, works to take my very life away. when God says to love your enemies, he extends this to the "evil twin" that resides deep within my heart. it means forgiving myself and knowing that there is something there worth loving. otherwise God would be a mere shadow in the past rather than an source of love and devotion in the here and now.

do not give up on yourself, God has not. nor will he ever until your final choice is made. just because we mess up doesn't mean that God has left us for the vulture. i would say vultures, but there is only one person out there looking to steal your happiness, and that is satan. one day, we will all bow down and proclaim that God is who he has said. where we stand on that day is entirely up to us. faith makes that possible. faith and the power of choice. so i am going to choose to trust God. with my life and with my ene(ME). i am praying for me, as much as i pray for you. God can work miracles, we just have to give him the chance to do it.