somewhere, over the rainbow

some nights just make me feel like kermy singin' the blues. i miss people. i used to be such a people person. search out a party, find a friend, peruse the bookstore just to watch people. but more and more i find that my evenings are alone, or centered around specific people. this is not bad, mind you, i am not complaining. just wondering where the old me has gone.

did she leave without writing me a note? i never got a 'dear john' to signal the end of one era, beginning of the new. i was never told that this was how it would be and yet it is what it is. i can't say i wouldn't change it for the world, that would be dishonest. there is still that girl inside of me who wants things. to travel. to visit. to explore the unknown. its just that i am happy to embrace the present 'me' and leave open the doors for the future 'me' to venture on. she will be back. she will show up some day with a smile and a knowing glance and i will reach over and grab his hand and say "hang on babe, we're going on an adventure..."

g'night people. i love you.